Tuesday, December 31, 2019

end of 2019

Here it is. New Years Eve. We are about to come into an epic decade. 2020. How cool is that?  A whole new decade with numbers to match?  I am pretty happy with my 2019. I am blessed with family and love. We have money to pay our bills and live a good life. No complaints. We have also been a family who in the past few years has taken on big things. Built houses with God’s help from the dirt up. Moved into rentals while we rented out our own. That is why this year has been so nice to have not dealt with that. Just to recuperate and relish. 
This whole winter break has been a time for family and no crazy schedules. We were able to spend some of it in the woods and then I broke down and splurged on a beautiful little bungalow for a few days at the beach. It’s a beach a bit further from home. One that we don’t normally go to. 

We came in late last night after dark and got settled in. Shut the blinds so the outside couldn’t see in. The beds were comfy. I dreamed how amazing it would be to own something like this. What a dream. At 8 am sharp I woke on New Years Eve day to the sound of saws and hammers. What the heck was that I thought?  The garbage man going by clanking the cans as he passed?  It wouldn’t let up. Then I realized the house was smack next to a giant new construction a lot away. Oh no!  At least they followed the noise code and waited til 8 am. Didn’t they know people wanted to sleep in and enjoy the solitude and then take a leisurely stroll to the ocean?  I began to holler to them in my closed room at a volume they wouldn’t have a chance of hearing while I peered through a blink to take a squint outside. Who in the heck does this on the eve of a new year?  I couldn’t see anyone and gave up and laid back down after grabbing my phone. I felt a little lazy opening up Facebook when these guys next to us were clearly seizing the day. 

That’s when I saw it. Right in my memories three years ago on this day was a post and pictures of us installing the gravel driveway in our current home by hand. No house. No utilities. Just bare glicky and gloppy mud, cold hands, a shovel and some gravel. 

We had no way of knowing back then that it would actually pan out. Where that hard work and crazy faith would take us. The house that would be built and the opportunities it would make. It was then that I had to laugh because I knew our beach rental was no coincidence. How fitting that similar to that time three years ago when I had been content settling into our house rental for a few years to rest and enjoy God had other plans. What did He do?  He shook things up. This caused us to have the tenacity and faith to put in the hard work. It jumped us ahead five steps today. 

God has a sense of humor. I know that from my moments with Him. He of course knew that on the eve of this new year. This new decade I would need to be put in a place that encompasses my ideal tranquility and then shake up that view with the sound of my past and my future colliding in unison. 

The sound of the waves is a place of peace to me. It is also very humbling. It’s magnitude. It’s depth. Only God allows me to be able to sit beside it in safety and admire its majesty while He holds back the waves. Only God gives me what I want while showing me what I need at the same time. 

The house this New Years is a gift to take me into the next step. The art of being able to sit with the sound of waves and hammers surrounding me. The waves are my sense of gratitude to Him and the beauty He provides. The hammer the sense of His plan not being done for my life. It’s time to move and continue stepping into His opportunities. Ones that I can’t know for sure the outcome, but if I don’t then I’ll never know. I’ll be settling for staying in someone else’s beach house when I could be living in my own. 

Friday, November 15, 2019

A new Family Car

We bought ourselves a nice minivan about four years ago when our kids were little. Caylee was going to cheer in Clackamas and Owen was not quite 2 years old. I remember feeling overwhelmed about the big purchase. Feeling like it was a mistake that we should just keep the old one we had with a ton of miles. Now 110,000 miles of driving later we bit the bullet and made the decision to replace it. 

I was sad. This thing had my two stickers on the back from Yellowstone and a Rainier. It had seated us comfortably and gotten us where we needed to go, but the safety ratings are crap and without having proper traction and AWD it makes it a bit scary. Especially since the engine was start to slightly heave when I drove. 

We started looking at a couple of options. Yesterday morning when I woke I was so overwhelmed with the thought that I just prayed to God in between my morning rush asking for guidance and clarity. I don’t want to steer us wrong.  We are self employed so I don’t know our future with finances 100% because we solely rely on God for clients. 

Once the bus stop pick ups for the kids came I was down at the stop when our neighbor noticed two big piles of thrown out mail in the street. It was clearly a theft. As I bent down to pick up one pile there on the back was a catalog for a car company I had been thinking about with the backside up of a photo with a car I had researched. Then another pile was a flyer similar.

I expressed to my friend the weirdness. Is that a sign as all alone one of the cars drove by mid sentence and then another of the other style I had researched drove past us too. 

Needless to say we ended up finding one and saying goodbye to our old one. I woke sick with worry and started scheming in my mind what to do financially if things so soft. Get ahead of it now. I sit down to pray and open the Jesus is calling and it’s right to me. Unless I feel total victory I feel defeated. When I pit myself against a difficulty I tense up and prepare for battle. I am to take my “concern” to God so He can shed light on it. 

Tuesday, November 12, 2019

A Fun Weekend

This last week was nice because a lot of the boy’s sports are winding down a bit. Friday night I took Logan to the dentist for a filling and before and after it had went to Goodwill. First with Caylee and then after because we forgot items, but the point is the kids found great clothes and Caylee found the game Mancala. 

When we got home Vince was bored he said, so we decided to bust the games out for the first time as a family in a long while and have a game night. I popped some popcorn and served the last bit of root beer and we gathered around the table. It then switched to Pictionary Junior. Owen was so particular with his drawing that he didn’t want people guessing early. 

Saturday we headed to Vince’s game in Rosgefield. They played well and won. Sunday his game was in Wilsonville. The fought hard but lost to a good team. They gave them a run for their money. There are a few parents who are out of control during the games. It’s gotten so bad that most don’t like them and are being in threat next time of eviction. Good times. Adults can be children more than kids are sometimes. 

Yesterday was Veterans Day and Caylee had cheer most of the afternoon. I had the novel plan to head up early with the kids and some lunch to go to a science center. We get all of the way to the door and it’s closed for the holiday. Just prior to heading up Caylee he bashed her toe on a table and so now it’s probably fractured. Logan’s leg is hurting from his last soccer game so here we are looking silly with nowhere to go. I start heading down a random street in hopes of some entertainment with Logan’s leg in a full pain and Caylee hobbling behind. Needless to say we turned back quickly and ended at a familiar park for only 20 minutes. It was crawling with little kids way younger than Logan and Ian. How are they too old for parks?  What is left for us?  

Back to school today. 

Wednesday, November 6, 2019

my daddios birthday

Yesterday seemed to be a turn around for our business this week as Vince found some workers to make headway on his job. I was at home getting a ton caught up. After work and school Logan went to his soccer class with his team. 

We were able to make the birthday dinner at Famous Dave’s restaurant for my dad and sisters birthdays. I am glad we went. The kids loved sharing their ice cream with my dad. Ian asked for an extra special picture with just him. My nephews Jackson and jay were so precious. I really love them all and am grateful for that moment together. 

Monday, November 4, 2019


Halloween was a super fun evening. The weather couldn’t have been nicer. Vince and I bought a coffee and then headed down to the lake area with the kids to trick or treat. We took an hour and a half and made it down one whole street and back. The kids were tired by 7:30 and went home to watch a movie and go to sleep. 

This weekend Vince worked. Logan had two championship cup games. One was 7-1 the other 2-4. On Saturday I went down with food poisoning and was sick all day. I drove him to his game with a bucket and then watched from the middle seat of my van. 

Yesterday Vince and the boys headed up north to grab caylee from a party and do a bid. On the way we ran out of diesel. Luckily it got us off the highway and into a parking lot but we hadn’t known how hard it is after a diesel truck runs out. It took roadside assistance and lots of waiting for over three hours to get it going, so I took the kids into Applebee’s to buy dinner. Then Vince did the bid in the dark with a flashlight. 

Wednesday, October 30, 2019

Almost Halloween

Halloween is tomorrow I can’t believe it. Life has been fun and busy. The boys just finished their last season soccer games last weekend, so the weeknight practices are less. I’ll take it. Ian’s team ended strong and his coach wants to go select next year. Logan is with Lisa and is loving select. He start cup this weekend. His old coach Morgan approached me Saturday fishing for Logan to come back next spring when he starts a team. I know Logan is loving it with Lisa. I also know it will be hard to juggle three full time kids in three different cities. 

Last Saturday caylee also had her first cheer showcase with her new gym. They did good and the stunts are going well. The lucky girl was able to help host a school social on Friday night and when I went to pick her up I found out she was invited to the after party for honor society. Then she went even longer I found and stayed for the young life hour. I am proud of her tenacity and mixing with good groups. Saturday after her showcase and trunk or treat she went to a all team birthday party where the mom rented a 14 passenger van and drove them all to dinner and the the corn maze. Then a sleepover. That girl got home on Sunday about lunch and slept straight through to school the next day. 

Last night was mcteacher night at McDonald’s. I was going to have Vince go through the drove through but the boys insisted that we go inside. Logan said it’s his last year there. Darn kiddo is right. I am glad we went in. He was surrounded by his best buds. It was good to see him doing well and having friends. 

Mr Owen is getting big and tall. He was up last night crying by me of growing pains in his feet. I remember caylee used to get those really bad in her legs. The poor guy couldn’t catch a break. Finally he fell asleep by me. We get to hang out on mondays when caylee has cheer. He goes to tumbling for a bit. After we went to the store to buy fake pumpkins. While walking back to the van a truck was turning wide near me. I did move and kept walking. Owen. Spent a good two minutes after explaining how mean that was for me not to move over and then in the van started hollering mean lady right here!!  He is not easy to fool that kiddo. 

Thursday, October 24, 2019

Fall Day Sunshine

Hello it’s a Thursday and for the last few days we have been blessed with some sunshine. I love it!  The rain is amazing, but it can get a bit much. 

Our week so far, the boys have their last Thursday soccer practice tonight for the season. Ian’s coach cancelled Tuesday because he threw his back out. It is a horrible situation, but we were excited to have nothing to do that night. 

Yesterday I go outside to find Ian and Owen because I had to get going to cheer and lo and behold they were up at near the top of the tallest tree. My five year old too!  I couldn’t believe my eyes and had to holler for them to come down while trying not to have a heart attack. Luckily they both made it down together safely, but holey moley that was too crazy. 

Caylee has the bad cold this week. She went home from practice early on Monday and missed school yesterday. Her class is hosting the school social tomorrow. She is a busy young lady who is always trying her best, but she does need to work on cleaning her room and doing a few catch up assignments. Never a dull moment. 

Logan is having fun playing soccer at recess and on his team. I am happy he gets to have those experiences with his friends and teammates to work hard and improve. 

Vince is working like crazy and making bills. I am working with the goats. Today I had them staked at different sections in order to try and get them out eating. They eat so dang much it’s hard to keep up!  

Tuesday, October 15, 2019

sick season

It has been a short summer this year and a quick approaching fall. With that being the case kids and parents were finding themselves getting sick at the start of school. Logan has a bad sore throat and head cold. He is still dealing with residual a bit. This stuff is taking over a week to kick. 

After the family half getting it I finally must have wore myself ragged because it is upon me. Can I say man cold?  How about mom cold?  I am not usually this sick so I am dying and coughing. My scalp for some weird reason feels like it’s on fire which doesn’t make sense and I have been pounding Starbucks medicine ball teas for the last two days. 

I knew I was bad when I was leaving preschool and saw a homeless person yesterday all tucked in a million blankets on the side of the grass with the nice 60 degree sunshine on his face. I thought oh that looks cozy. I wish I could take a nap. Horrible I know. 

As parents we have to keep chugging along. Like driving my daughter to cheer for 75 miles one way chugging and then once I parked I fell in to a deep sleep in the second row of the van. It was the drooling kind of sleep. 

It’s funny how when your kiddos are sick you are on point with encouraging words, sage skills of topical oil applications, regular doses of rich and purple elderberry and drawn baths. 

When I am sick I barely want to move and just shuffle around in my baggy jeans and big sweater momentarily coming to life when an audience of someone outside our home is around. 

Last night I fulfilled the mission of sports practice driving and got home late to find my husband snuggled and asleep on the couch with Ian. I shut off the lights and got in bed with dreams of fresh water and essential oils being put into the diffuser by my bed. I passed out instead and woke an hour later to my husband staggering in surprised the house was dark and the he had fallen asleep mid moment. I muttered something about diffuser!  Oils! Please!  Help!  To which he said what?  It’s right by you and rolled over back to sleep. 

I’ll get through this. Life will go on. Tonight is a round robin of Caylee’s parent teacher conferences. I get to try and look “normal” and cheery for about an hour before I can slump into my evening of frozen pizza and a book. 

On a side note... Vince added to the Halloween collection of spooky hanging ghost decorations to another level. He said I have no room to talk since I got one last month on the insistence of my five year old who insists it’s his baby and totes it around. Prayers for us all would be appreciated. 

Sunday, October 13, 2019

A Busy Weekend

Phew!  It is Sunday night and I am ending it in bed after taking a hot bath while my husband and kids watch the Seahawks game. We had a crazy busy weekend and to top it off I feel like I am fighting a cold. 

Friday the kiddos had the day off from school so we spent it cleaning and getting their homework done. Boring right?  I didn’t want to get stuck with it today. My parents took us all and my nephew to the new Adams Family movie. It was fun to see my parents being the best grandparents and loving our kiddos. 

Saturday I convinced my husband to take the weekend off after working at least 14 days straight. We were able to all go and watch our two boys soccer games, followed by some donuts at Voodoo and then his friend’s kiddos birthday party. I get a bit overwhelmed with crowds and most were Phillipino, so I couldn’t even speak the language. The kids had a blast and the wife prepared amazing food!  

Today we spent the day heading to the beach to put away the rv into storage for the winter and peruse an antique shop. The kids did good but they got tired of me saying, “that’s breakable be careful.”  I was also mean because I wouldn’t let them get anything. 

Grateful and blessed I am. 

Friday, October 11, 2019

a whirlwind year

Life has been good and busy this last year. I am happy to say that the house is up and has been an amazing blessing for our family. Our kiddos are settled in to their schools and sports. The work was with it. 

Our oldest is now in 7th grade. She is in cheer still for the sixth year, honor society and college preparatory class. She is a smart and quick witted kiddo who has a good head on her shoulders. Her dreams are to join the Air Force and become a pilot. 

Our oldest boy is in his fifth grade year. His last year of elementary. How is that possible?  He is busy playing soccer at school and with his year round team. He also is a good big brother and wants to be a comic book artist. 

Our second son is in the second grade now. He is busy with soccer and always a big helper with outside projects. He is feisty but always willing to give big hugs. He wants to join the military. 

Our youngest is five and in his second year of preschool. His is our analytical guy who pays attention to detail. He is a good friend to his classmates and a good little bro. He said his favorite color is gray and he wants to be a doctor.